and be the one, who catches all your tears

Yeah, shoot me. Bang.

Went MIA for quite some time.

After all the chaos that had happened in my life, well you can say, finally I'm breathing now.

2012-early 2015. Man, it was tough for me. Physically and mentally. I really, damn, pushed myself. I gained sweetest experience and for that experience my friend, tagged along with tonnes of bitterness.

I just came out from a darkest forest, ever.

Wait, no hug for me? Come on, I just survived that freaking, damp darkest FOREST.

Nevermind. Now, I can see the sunlight. It's time for me to plan ahead.

Bang.

when my hands, don't play the strings the same way

Mundane Monday.

Such a nice weather outside, but gloomy inside heart. Too many things you hold inside, wanting to explode but oh no, no. You woke up, try to positive yourself. You smile along the journey like a maniac but hell no, you don't care. 

Feel like diverging, but you don't know which road to step in. Urm, not knowing seems like a lie. You're just afraid, to make a move. But.. it's not that afraid, matters. Uh, i don't know. As far as i can feel, my heart wanting to settle in that place. But the situation now makes it so impossible. Am i being negative for having this thought?

Mundane Monday.

Sorry bebel. Good day all

teroka teroesir

Kau bilang, mahu teroka dunia.

Dengan aku.

Dengarnya indah, kita di awang-awangan.

Sama-sama teroka yang hitam, yang putih dunia.

Tapi, jika sama-sama teroka itu,

aku jumpa yang hitam itu kau. Atau, kau jumpa yang hitam itu aku.

Kau mahu berhenti teroka?

knock knock, 1 2 3

Kau ditolak.

Sehinggakan kau rasa kau ini tidak punya akal yang penuh.

Akal yang terisi.

Kau cuma ada akal yang sedikit, refleksi daripada itu dapatlah remark "kau tidak mampu menyempurnakan kerja dengan baik, useless".

Kau punya saat kau rasa kau adalah aset, tetapi sekarang kau adalah asid semata!

Knock,knock. Can you please bring back my own self?

Let's hear your rhythm, don't wait

Tarik aku.

Tarik aku sedalam-dalamnya.

Aku ingin merasai rush itu.

Aku ingin merasai ketenangan itu.

Aku ingin masuk ke dunia itu.

Dunia aku, seorang.

Walau, kejap cuma.

Kerna kejap itu, ku rasakan sayang.

Sini, lama yang membutuhkan aku kuat.

Lama,

yang aku nampak tiada penghujung.

Memori di Gunung Stong, 30 April hingga 4 Mei.

Musik background: Olivia

rainbow stripes, will you come out now?

"Look at the sky, there's no beginning to it and no ending.

Have you walked far enough to discover the beauty?"

Betapa fragile-nya hati aku ini. Ujian datang, terus terombang ambing! Bamm!

Hati, kau taknak ke kekal tenang?

Kenapa perlu kau hantar signal ke otak aku, saying you are not happy?

Otak, kau ada jawapan?

There will be no easy way out to make a choice. And to step out from your comfort zone, do different things altogether, it doesn't make any sense to certain people.

Allahu. Guide me.

Deal?

Here's the deal.

Aku: Aku ada emas.

Kau: Aku ada duit.

Aku: Aku nak duit, jadi aku trade emas ni bagi kat kau.

Kau: Aku nak emas, aku nak duit juga.

Aku: Kau tak boleh ada semua. Kau ada emas, kau boleh dapat duit juga. Aku ada duit, aku boleh dapatkan emas jugak.

Both are valuable. It's just in different form.

Seronoklah kau kalau semua yang nak boleh dapat. Apa kata ambil plastisin, buat bentuk bulat pastu ukir-ukir sikit haa kan dah jadi planet kau sendiri dok situ diam-diam.