when my hands, don't play the strings the same way

Mundane Monday.

Such a nice weather outside, but gloomy inside heart. Too many things you hold inside, wanting to explode but oh no, no. You woke up, try to positive yourself. You smile along the journey like a maniac but hell no, you don't care. 

Feel like diverging, but you don't know which road to step in. Urm, not knowing seems like a lie. You're just afraid, to make a move. But.. it's not that afraid, matters. Uh, i don't know. As far as i can feel, my heart wanting to settle in that place. But the situation now makes it so impossible. Am i being negative for having this thought?

Mundane Monday.

Sorry bebel. Good day all

Deal?

Here's the deal.

Aku: Aku ada emas.

Kau: Aku ada duit.

Aku: Aku nak duit, jadi aku trade emas ni bagi kat kau.

Kau: Aku nak emas, aku nak duit juga.

Aku: Kau tak boleh ada semua. Kau ada emas, kau boleh dapat duit juga. Aku ada duit, aku boleh dapatkan emas jugak.

Both are valuable. It's just in different form.

Seronoklah kau kalau semua yang nak boleh dapat. Apa kata ambil plastisin, buat bentuk bulat pastu ukir-ukir sikit haa kan dah jadi planet kau sendiri dok situ diam-diam. 

you can dance, you can jive, having the time of your life

Tuesday Randoms

1) Aku update blog waktu kerja

2) Aku lapar dan grumpy sekarang

3) Aku nak on whatsapp tapi God knows why I can't do it

4) Please, aku butuh sikit lagi waktu untuk dapatkan nombor baru dan on data plan

5) Hidup penuh kejutan, be careful with your steps

6) Now listening- Amy Search, Nyata dan Maya

7) Bila transfer order nak keluar? 

15082013

kau kata kau yakin?

macam mana kau yakin kalau tak diuji?

kau kata kau kuat?

macam mana kau tahu kau kuat kalau kau tak diuji?

kalau dapat ujian, jangan mengeluh. 

aku tahu susah, aku dah pernah rasa and masih merasa. 

tapi apakan daya, kau nak menaip pun kau takkan mampu melainkan diizinkanNya. ramai orang senang cakap, tak apa, kalau ada kesusahan, percaya semua kepadaNya. aku tahu itu yang patut aku buat, dan aku masih belajar untuk berserah diri. it takes time, it takes patience. aku rasa cara ini lebih selamat, untuk aku mengenali aku dan untuk mengenali Tuhan aku. Dia bagi kau otak,akal. untuk kau berfikir. kan?

cakap memang pandai. tolong doakan aku

have you ever felt like you're living in a spot light, searching for the real you?

ahhhh how i miss this space! i miss this i miss this i miss to write yes i miss this space!

long hiatus, but not much update. 4 months have passed, now is the 5th month. but i'm still juggling to get used with this so-called-working-world. i'm still looking for a place to plant my feet, but still haven't found one. on the issue of being picky cum choosy, yes i am one of them. but hey, u got to make a wise choice and do things u want to do, not other people expect u to do. but when the reality strikes, gahhh it's hard, man!

to summarise all the events that had happened throughout my MIA-mode-here, all from hey-i-got-a-job-lets-celebrate but then hmm *insert lightning strikes sound*. then went for my convocation, for the 2nd time, for my 2nd degree hiks hiks know what it means haha it means imma increase my nilai hantaran as well lah lol lol! and up to the story of attending my friend's wedding to me having the feeling to get married as well but too bad, i cannot married with my baby v hmm

now, back to reality. got lot of works to settle. me hate this

siapa bilang siapa kata, bulan itu jauh

yes, i'm at the office now. so malas to turun for lunch, i end up trying to finish my breakfast instead. my daily routine for meals had all gone haywire recently, since i started working. now i can attach myself to my lecturer's feeling, when he said that all he wanted to do post-office hour is to go back home, and leave alone the lust to have a dinner.

working, is tiring. enough said. but nothing comes easy, i know. should opt to be a housewife after this, or probably a hairstylist, saw the advertisement down the street. kbye

and that was then and this is now

the feeling of unlikable, disregarded and unnoticeable. yes, you want to yell it all out, you want to tell the whole world, but you just can't. they are pushing you, throwing out words they ought to keep to themselves. full with egocentric. probably they forget the existence of 'hati dan perasaan' of a human being. new scars every single day, and i don't know whether i can bear this any longer. 

ya Tuhan, lemahnya aku.

(picture: credit)

just close your eyes, the sun is going down

do you ever left alone in a library? no signs of any existence of a human being can be seen in the nearest distance. be it left, right, in front of you or even behind you, there is no one. you can just hear you, yourself, making a sound, in the attempt to break the silence, by typing the keyboard.. wanting to explode your fear and nervousness by writing in the blog. and you heard a sound, coming from a corner but you can't seem to find or see anyone there.

oh my, pity me. if i am not so lazy like this, i rather studying at my room instead of sacrificing myself to be here. stop the imagination, evidence test is tomorrow, and i iz not yet finish reading. how how now :'( goodbye everyone

this could be para para paradise

cuti sudah habis. ok relax relax jangan menggelabah jangan stress. *take a pillow and scream*

2 months to go babyy, but the workloads are crazy. i wish for an escapade but how lah to escape with all the works keep on coming.i can foresee myself staying in the firm, at late night hour, try to finish off the works. well i gotta repay back those times i lost (due to procrastination, what else kan?) by staying up late wohooo not fun at all ye ladies and gentlemen.

oh such a happy cat. ok i am procrastinating again. bye

1973

and did I tell you how i miss to write again?

and it hurts like hell, but i can deal

stranded at the airport, with 4 hours due before my flight is scheduled to be arrived. being a lone ranger is not bad at all.. in fact i love it and oh, i am well-used to it. and apparently, my observation rate has rapidly and furiously increasing here. my eyes are glued to the different culture, faces and the style each of them possess.

ironically,my laptop battery doesn't seem to cooperate with me. now, i am left with zero entertainment and pleasure, except with my book newly brought and another observation yet to discover. will blog later, have a happy holiday every(one).

"to live is to think" - Marcus Tullius Cicero

the standard of proving in a criminal case is beyond reasonable doubt. to achieve or able to achieve that standard, it's not an easy job. if there exist, even a slight doubt in the case, it will be totally fatal.

due to insufficiency of evidence (for example), doubt has been cast upon the case and he/she hence is innocent in the eyes of law. but it still, did not change the fact that he/she actually committed the crime. the actus reus remains, but it's just the guilt that cannot be proved since there is a doubt in the case and as a consequences, the doubt had hardly shaken the case. well, of course there are cases where a man/a woman is totally innocent thus he/she deserved to be a free bird.

learn the law before you criticize or commenting about any case. arguing with a basis and knowledge plus equipped with the brain, is much appreciated and fun to be debated and to be read upon. respect the justice system, for the task of giving the justice ain't a santai job but required intelligent and hard skill.

speaking of the right to speak and to think, well this is just another piece of my little opinion.

on top of that, i got an offer to work at Kumon starting this Feb. may Allah eases my journey.

of the clock, and the heartbeats

a watch. bracelets. and sherlock holmes.

enough charm for me.

the plot is intriguing, i must say.except the fact that i have to seat at the front row, i'l be surely then to give it the highest rate. next possible mission, is mission impossible.

speaking of managing my time, i got test tomorrow and i still yet to cover chapters.

break free, the thing i miss the most nowadays.

you best be quick, you've got to run

tau tak, perasaan nebes yang kian membuak-buak apabila tarikh test sudah hampir tiba and i have yet to cover 85% of the chapter tapi tak tau kenapa masih lagi gedik untuk online buat seketika dan seterusnya membawa saya untuk menghadpet blog yang sudah lama tersadai ini.

oh crap.

how i wish for an escapade right now.

and I don't even wanna know your name

ipso facto, time is such a jealousy.the morning breeze had suddenly left me in a sec, leaving me with gloomy, dark clouds..the Mr.Evening.and friday had left me for good too, it's time to make my way to meet Mr.Monday.the third week, the phase where everything's about to change.stay calm dear, and keep your heart firm.

define 'stop' for me, for i will just keep walking.

you make me do my two step all day, and keep me looking fly for ya

semua orang sibuk upload gambar raya dengan si gadisnya memakai baju raya walahhh lap lip lap lah dan si jejakanya segak bergaya pakai baju melayu dengan seliper anda memang kebabom pastu ada jgk lah yg post status kat fb bape banyak dah duit raya depa dapat kutip. tak banyak duit saya dpt tahun ini, saya okay T_T

ini bukan ayat jeles.jauh sekali dari itu, tapi saya amat gembira tengok situasi ini setiap kali raya menjelma, kerna sasaran untuk saya meng-stalk org yg mengupload gambar raya makin bertambah lah.heh heh oops terbocor rahsia

terdetik jgk niat di hati saya untuk mengupload gambar raya, namun apabila perut dan mulut bergerak lebih tangkas berbanding tangan untuk menangkap gambar of every sweetest raya moments together dengan adik beradik mahupun sepupu sepapat dan saudara mara, maka tiada banyak gambar untuk saya upload

jadi saya memutuskan..

untuk tidak langsung mengupload gambar.

kecuali gambar ini sahaja.mcm ada feel2 beraya di kampung kan, gambar tertera di bawah ini.

anyhoo, the wish.selamat hari raya semua, mohon ampun for any wrongdoings dan kekhilafan yang pasti ada.kalau tersombong, terbelagak, termuncung ke harap dimaafkan jugak.jaga diri, love semua bye

but i'm not crazy, i'm just a little unwell

confession number 12.

i hate public transport.

yes,i hate it.i hate the fact i can't control the journey, the fact that i can't steer the path to wherever i want to go.i want to be the driver, so i can stop at wherever i like.i don't want to listen to your song along the journey,i wish i can pick mine.too much people, i get nauseated.exception, it won't be that hard if i have to stay with a bunch of lovelies people around me.no, i'm not complaining..i'm just saying my thought.

but it's all change recently, to be precised.i love to be on the train(minus the bus, i still hate it), tho the journey is long that i might prolly almost staring and scanning in and out of a person in front of me.persons, i mean.observing is just my passion,if you might ask.stop the chirpy side, i'll be all silent in the train.i find it cozy enough for me to sleep on the train too, hell yeah.don't you find it's cool enough to read tuesday with morrie while having that dum dum rhythm,listening to your fav song.a-ah, you only live once, the strokes? the beat, oh i might sing in the train. overjoy, and overwhelmed.the feeling, you just can't describe.

how do i choose between a dream and a reality?

well, i don't know either.

twenty-nine different attributes, and you only got five

MIA recently.i bet many hearts miss me, i know..i can sense the beat.keep calm everyone.

well, the reason behind it because, the internet line-i don't know whatever the name is so called- doesn't seem to serve me well! 2 nights..i had to cover myself with a blanket, cried over the pillows mengenangkan tragedi ini.tsktsk

tapi, celik mata saja harini.. walah! sudah boleh back to online bah! the TMnet guy has become my hero, after successfully bringing joy to my life back. rupanya wayar atau bahasa omputihnya, cable di luar rumah yg putuih. saya sangkakan panas hingga ke petang, rupanya hujan di tengah hari (?)

anyway, saya akan hapdet dengan lebih banyak cerita sensasi selepas ini.saya tinggalkan anda dengan klip video yang menarik di bawah.lelaki mahupun perempuan mesti melebur tengok kehenseman mereka semua

it's a nightmare, so I'm joining the army

i'm odd

i don't like what they like

at all

i'm plainly rage

a walk, is all i need

bubbly and chirpy, hey do i miss me?

family, friends and the memoria

risky enough, just embrace it

over 140, then decode me.

until i put out all the mess, i'll write as usual

you're so far, like a stranger i have crush on

so, i rarely update my blog nowadays.not that i don't have free time, not that i don't have ideas to write about, and not that i totally forget about my blog..is just that i don't have the mood to update stuffs. i miss writing so much, used to be my favourite activity.but now, foods have taking over the job.oh boy

and instead of keeping my readers missing me.. ok fine, no one's missing you or reading your blog but who cares? i have right to pretend that the bunch are exist, kan? although i know the reality hurts T__T

but let no one spoils the mood, coz i have my favourite drama now to watch (read: unrelated). 'fairly legal', that is.it's a story of a mediator who's trapped between the issue of a justice should rightfully be served and a lawyer career on the other hand, who's just basically follow the books without considering other factors.one of the quotation that i like to pick from this drama, "lawyers burn bridges, mediator built them".woohoo sizzling statement! :)

come to think again, im not really sure whether i want to end up myself as a lawyer, or not to be.pretty weird huh, i don't really even know what to do after this.yeah, i still want to pursue my studies, but after llb then what? only God knows. i do have certain plans, dreams and all.but.. there's but.

what attract me most from this drama is how Kate (the main watak) is enjoying her job, trying to settle problems between parties and at least try to help them from getting all poket-koyak paying the cost to get the case be litigated. she enjoys doing her job, passionately.i wish i can find my interests, like certain of my friends did.

but shall i randomly list it, it would never end.lend me ears,i can talk about it all day long.i just can't wait,happily to scratched it off the list.insyaAllah dan amin

intentionally senget-done.and happy father's day too,bye!